(Via Jessica)

At thirteen I realized that I was different than many of my friends. While they braided each others hair, and put on make-up, I was listening to the Beatles, and talking about world hunger to those who were older than I. At thirteen there was one major difference that I noted and could not speak to anyone about…I was attracted to both men and women. I started going to a youth group that was held at a church close to my house. All the kids I knew gathered there, and my parents thought I would “adjust” if I participated in an activity that all the kids my age were participating in. I attended for a few meetings before the topic of sex came up …they said that sex was only for men and women, and that sex between members of the same sex was not only wrong, but would be punishable by damnation to hell. This did not sound right in my fragile mind, but I accepted that I was deviant and needed to keep my feelings to myself. Then I met Desiree. Things changed rapidly in my life, because I had never acted upon my natural urges before. I lost my virginity to her, and when a friend of ours outed us to the church, we were both told to leave and never return. It was at this moment I realized that the church was created by the unreasonable mind of man, and could oust you from society for being different. Sex is natural, and further more, homosexual urges are also natural. I fall in the “grey area” of bisexuality which is pinned by the church as “a cry for attention”…Religion is not only a tool to keep citizens under a “thumb” but also a way of keeping deviant behavior out, and keeping “good followers” on the so-called path of holiness (which of course is the path to hate, and war). I could never belong to an organization who boasts that “god hates fags”. If “god” existed…wouldn’t he just smite the un-worthy??? If “god” is a being of eternal love, why would he want his children (gay, straight, transsexual, or bisexual) to live lives filled with torment and persecution….wasn’t the whole point of christianity to live a peaceful life??? As I grew older I became more and more distanced from the church, and have been more and more happy each day since. The church will not tell me what is the correct way to live. Peace, love and happiness to you all.