You say that you wrote a letter to Fox TV when you were three years old. Mozart learned to play the harpsichord when he was three, but he was a genius. If you had been writing letters back when your were three, you'd be as famous as Mozart by now.

Don't take this personally. I don't know you. Perhaps you really do have a disease (but a few diseases?) which causes you constant pain, and that's the reason why you have trouble writing – because although you know some big words (like 'schizophrenic'), you don't seem to know the rules of grammar.

I do believe you are in some kind of pain, and were hoping someone would sympathise and respond. If I have been wrong, I apologise. But whatever the cause of your pain, I do sympathise and wish you well.