(Via Sonny Myhrr)
When I was a baby I saw my father for the first time and at that time I knew I would Die young and suffering. My grandfather died young suffering. I saw an image of him while I was in my crib looking into the sunlight!
I have always been smart and a quick learner. An example of that is when I was 3 I wrote to Fox the t.v. station and requested that the little house on the prairie would be stopped from being aired. I did this because my older half sister watched it religiously and I hated it.
I don’t believe in God or much of anything spiritual except that art and love are a positive force. I have a few diseases that are genetic and I suffer greatly! The spiritual claim ignorance toward me when I exclaim my pain.
I have been suffering since I was four. I called a church at the age of 20 and asked the catholic priest if it were possible that the Devil were after me. He said that the holy bible holds the answers but the fact is that it is a schizophrenic literature hands down.
I think the devil is a woman who can become men and women and may have created the versions of spirituality. I feel she is not greater than anyone as a matter of fact she might be despised and destroyed by each thing ever. So she is what I consider the religious to believe in.
I am 29 years old and will die within 10 years. I would rather not have witnessed this life nor lived it but I see no reason to give up just because I am surrounded by sin and things that will never ever be worth while.
The new album by Drowning Pool is like I wrote it, word for word it is how I feel. Listen to it if you have read this and don’t understand. I am godless and love being independent and free!
I'm an atheist, too, Sonny. I don't believe in you.
You say that you wrote a letter to Fox TV when you were three years old. Mozart learned to play the harpsichord when he was three, but he was a genius. If you had been writing letters back when your were three, you'd be as famous as Mozart by now.
Don't take this personally. I don't know you. Perhaps you really do have a disease (but a few diseases?) which causes you constant pain, and that's the reason why you have trouble writing – because although you know some big words (like 'schizophrenic'), you don't seem to know the rules of grammar.
I do believe you are in some kind of pain, and were hoping someone would sympathise and respond. If I have been wrong, I apologise. But whatever the cause of your pain, I do sympathise and wish you well.
Posted by Okallicrates | July 5, 2009, 11:35 pm